i dreamt of that bad old man vincent who always suarn me!! no lar!! just kidding~
i was dreaming myself in japan and the evil spirits within. how people deal in business and involving spirits, human sacrifice, rituals, trading of souls and other stuffs in it... didn't find it pleasant.. and the background music still playing around my head after i woke up with a start. its a eerie clown circus music.. i guess you guys should know how it sounds... don't ask me how it sounds. eeks~ its was an hour nap and i had to dream of those? gruelsome. worse thing is, i haven't been watching an movie or tv and reading up any particulars or things... i thought it was due to hardcore gaming but i realised that there is nothing in relation of. i decided to pray. i told God, "Lord, i finally sense the spiritual darkness that is bonding that country. i've decided to do something.. not to fight with it, but to bring people out of darkness and to His glory and light. Lord, please let me know, if that is a calling that You're telling me..." and while typing this, i realised that i did watch a news on aichi expo and there was the emperor and the prime minister.
somehow, after i woke up, my burden for Japan grew... this year, i was too confident about preparation and forgot to guard myself against the evil ones. i walked to the room and decided to flip to the bible for comfort to my fears... maybe i've overtire myself too much..
10'Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'
-Isaiah 41:10
a verse that i've hold on so closely for a past few years yet recently, i totally forgot this assurance. i decided to really, place all my fears unto Him and really rely solely entirely on Him.
i'm excited about this trip~ i am not so prepared yet, what about you guys?
Yuu at 7:46:00 PM